I've watched many friends change over the past year. Of all of them, I think I've changed the most. I've watched some friends become engaged (for better or worse), some get married, some get pregnant, some give birth, and some, I've had to sit idly by while their boyfriends abused them. It's a weird place in life that I've found myself. Not really ready to let go of being a "kid" but not really ready to handle all that life has to throw in my face. I suppose with Tracy, I don't really have much of an option. It's all right there...LIFE and the very real ending of such.
But really, I need to give this antiquated hunk of metal a rest and get myself to bed...Hopefully I won't awake with a fever!!
I'm not supposed to love you,
I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there,
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are and what to do,
I'm sorry I can't help myself,
I'm in love with you