So for the past 22-23 years I've been in school.... Working towards some end (though that "end" changed a few times along the way). Today started my last semester in school (at least for a LONG TIME). But I didn't go to class. You see, I'm in my last stretch. Only a 600 hour internship left. I'll only attend class 5 more times, possibly ever.
Today also marked the last time I'll watch "my kids" because they had a day off from school. When Shannon's dad (some of you might remember the curly blonde about Haley's age and the guy video taping at the wedding) came to get her, she and I had a really hard time saying goodbye. Sure I'll still see her/them. Still watch them for date nights or just to hang out...but it's different now. It won't be every day. I won't be helping with homework, correcting their grammar/manners, or be an active part of their little lives. I won't get my hugs and smiles and love. It broke my heart to let go of her and even more when I saw her tear up. I came inside and started to cry (oh, who am I kidding, I was sobbing before I made it to the door).
As I was sitting here crying, feeling oh-so-sorry for myself, my "work" phone rang (the cell I was given at my internship). It was clearly someone else's cell from work, but someone I hadn't programmed into my phone. That would be because I currently intern for the mid-county team (read slave for free). The person calling me was the North county team's supervisor...and my new supervisor. She was calling me to tell me I was now going to be WORKING for her team. Yes, that's right, working. Paid with benefits.
So here I sit, a basket full of emotions. I'm so sad to be walking away from my kids, but so excited to be walking into my new career. I've spent YEARS leading up to this point. Now that I'm here, I'm wondering...."now what?" I've never taken a break, never stepped back. I've always had a carrot in front of my facing egging me forward. School is done, life begins.
I'm a first time mom learning the ropes and figuring out how to be a modern mommy! What was second nature to my great-grandparents and grandparents is brand new and modern to me! Follow me as I endeavor on this journey of breastfeeding, cloth diapering, and generally attempting to be a modern mommy!